Drifting along...

I have in my short life span of almost 1/4 century old (some will say its old), accomplished almost everything i set my heart to.

- I got into the seconday sch i wanted to go to
- I got into the JC i wanted to go to
- I wanted to do rockclimbing and i did.
- I wanted to win, and though not an individual medal, I helped the school win the national trophy
- I eventually became an Officer in the SAF, despite going a different route
- I got into a U of M
- Then I managed to get into the b-sch
- I wanted to graduate with a job in hand and i did that.
- I wanted to do Consulting or IB and I got one of them

I did them all with decent grades. Grades that perhaps is not good enuff for some top Singaporean scholars, but just fine by me. I was hoping to get a scholarship to go overseas, but didnt get it. Well, on hindsight, its better this way. I like the freedom, and there are lots more opportunities here.

So I did what I had to, got most of what I wanted, but now, I am lost.
Lost because in every stage of my life I had a goal, something to strive towards. Now that I have started work, there is nothing tangible to strive for. Promotion? sure, everyone wants that. More pay? BOnus? Tangible, sure, but doesnt seem like a fixed target I can work towards. I knew what I had to do to get to the college i wanted, but not the route to a high bonus is way less clear.

Maybe I am just burnt out after all the years of studying. Or maybe the job is not all that exciting. Or, as I like to tell myself...maybe I need a girlfriend to balance out my life? haha....crazy me. But its so crazy it might be true....so maybe finding a girlfriend will be my new yr's resolution?

The Wonders of Friendship

Ah, the wonders of friendship...
Where a simple holler
Can convey the same level of care
And love...
As an intimate hug

A Sea of Clouds

It looks like cotton
Fluffy and white
I’m sure I can stand on it
I really do.
But science and logic tells me no
It would have been so fun
Bouncing on the sea of soft comfy clouds

Thoughts by the window

As the sun rose
Bathing the sky in a beautiful mix of orange and purple
I wondered at the beauty of nature
I thought about friends
I thought about Senior’s Day
The familiar sight of the airplane wing…

Up close, the sea of clouds joined together for miles & miles
As far as the eyes could see
As we went higher, and the sun rose over the horizon…
Oh!
What a breaktaking sight…

Amidst the sea of blue and white is an island of clouds
The captain said we are at 25,000 ft
High up enough to marvel at nature’s beauty

Thoughts of a graduating Singapore boy

As I lay on my bed
Watching the autumn leaves fall to the ground
My thoughts wandered to what the future might hold
Will I find a job?
Will I have to go back to Singapore?

The leaves are beautiful
But I know the cold is coming
Is this where I want to stay for the next few years?
I hate the cold
But it’s a carefree life

Part of me wants to stay
To be near to the one I yearn for
But is it worth it?
The age gap!
The age gap!
‘Tis will not work
So don’t be silly

(Fall 2003)

Winter

Winter is coming, winter is coming
The trees are all bare
The wind so icy cold
The People huddle along...
Beneath their heavy coats
Yes.
Winter is coming, winter is coming